Carl Jung, an Acting Exercises and Jihad

From the wiki entry for Carl Jung:

"A number of childhood memories had made a life-long impression on him. As a boy he carved a tiny manikin into the end of the wooden ruler from his pupil's pencil case and placed it inside the case. He then added a stone which he had painted into upper and lower halves of, and hid the case in the attic. Periodically he would come back to the manikin, often bringing tiny sheets of paper with messages inscribed on them in his own secret language. This ceremonial act, he later reflected, brought him a feeling of inner peace and security. In later years, he discovered that similarities existed in this memory and the totems of native peoples like the collection of soul-stones near Arlesheim, or the tjurungas of Australia. This, he concluded, was an unconscious ritual that he did not question or understand at the time, but was practiced in a strikingly similar way in faraway locations that he as a young boy had no way of consciously knowing about. His findings on psychological archetypes and the collective unconscious were inspired in part by this experience."

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Carl_Jung

Anyway, I recently came across chaosmatrix.org while doing a search on Fotamecus on a friend's advice and came across "The Jihad of Chaos" ritual and committed to a seven day excursion into the Lesser Jihad duties. I felt that this might help me regain some of the energy I recently lost due to a break-up.

One of the components of this ritual is to do a daily Vortex Ritual with the one in the morning being dedicated to the Immanentizing of the Eschaton and preceded by the following Chaoist Catechism.

A CHAOIST CATECHISM
We believe in Almighty Chaos
Mother of Matter and Aether
Nothing is True
and Everything is Permitted
There is no God but Chaos
The Pact, its Ministry on Earth

There is no Being
All is Doing
There is no Self
We do all the Gods and Goddesses
Freedom over "truth"
Probability Rules, Chaos Reigns

Pestilential Religions, Putrid Ideologies
To Entropy! Make my Aeon!
We are its Staff, Sword, Chalice, and Shield
We Know, We Will, We Dare, and we are Devious
Today the World
Tomorrow the Solar System

We Immanentize the Eschaton!
We Invoke the Pandaemonaeon!

Okay, so now I've got the feeling that I can make this more powerful by memorizing it instead of reading it from a piece of paper...to me this feeling of power is what is most commonly referred to as "achieving gnosis".

I sit down and spend an hour or so memorizing and remember an acting exercise that I used to do --without going into details I come from an acting and acting teaching background and am greatly encouraged to find that Austin Osman Spare considered himself equally an artist and magician.

Anyway, here's the exercise.

After you've got the bit you're trying to memorize about 90% committed to memory, begin to read it differently.

Do a run through:

1) As fast as you can.
2) As slow as you can.
3) Laughing the entire way through.
4) Crying the entire way through.
5) As angry as possible.
6) As scared as possible.

It was most interesting to me to find the entire meaning of the piece change when I did it smiling and laughing the entire way through.